Recently I’ve become more accepting of a part f me. A part that I’ve tried to hide from others because I was ashamed of what I was. Changed my mannerisms to fit and eventually led my own way to self hatred of my kind. I knew I was this way since I was little, the way I was in school, my way I acting around other kids, it wasn’t hard to see. So today I bare it all and just come out with it. I’m a geek.

Geek, nerd, or whatever you want to call me, that’s what I am. Highly intelligent with proficiency in mathematics, technology and high spatial skills. I’m no longer ashamed to hide who I really am. So what I can program, I read comic books, watch Angel, Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Anime. I’ve seen every episode of Star Trek: TNG, DS9 & Voyager, praise the accomplishments of Steve Jobs and read the any and all Macintosh news. I play video games; console, computer and handheld. I mean like role playing games. I use to play Magic: The Gathering on a daily basis.

I come out today cuz I no longer care what people think of me. I am a black geek and I’m proud of it.

Well my brief vacation is over and I’m back to work. All day yesterday my boss kept calling me to coming into work and check the computers. Y’all know I didnt answer my phone, frequent user of caller ID and I do screen my calls.

So when I get to work today my manager was like “What happened to you yesterday?” All I said was that I’m not the only person in this department… and left it at that. He tried to throw some team work bullshit at me and I was like “if we’re a team, then why am ‘I’ the only one doing it? If I take a vacation don’t expect me to be on call, hell don’t expect me to be in town. My priorities don’t have this company on it.” then I walked away. Its been so long since I’ve cussed anybody out. I need to start doing that again.

Now I’m not gonna say that I watch an excessive amount of pornography, but I do watch enough. Most of my vacation I’ve been spending with my baby so there really hasn’t been a need but I usually watch outta boredom. And today I was bored… so I head online to my frequent porn sites. ANd behold there’s new content and guess what? I cant view it. The site is written in Cold Fusion, videos encoded in Real Player and none of it is work on Safari 1.2, IE 5.3, Netscape 7.1, Mozilla, OmniWeb, etc etc. Complete incompatible with Macintosh. I was pissed, actually I’m still pissed. I want my porn when I want it. Not later but now. Don’t get it twisted, I wasn’t gonna go “Handle My Business” I just like porn. I have issues.

Simply loving my day off… I did daymn near nothing and I’m fine with that.

Went to the dentist and had my mouth prison-raped, AGAIN. and all I had was cavity filling. A nigga was in serious ass pain. But drugs made me all better. I hate going to the dentist but I need to get a need pearly smile. I got another appointment Thursday morning.

I was up til 3am eating some White Castle (chicken rings not the burgers). I was up watching Informmercials on the TV Guide Channel. And there was this one for some blender/food processor thing and every stereotypical character u every thought could be on informmercial was on this daymn thing. They had a bubblely blonde hair chick, the average brunette, and dis-shoveled drunk, the Aussie, the geeky white dude and chain-smoking Hazel with action Mu-mu. Shit was gutty.

Speaking of gutty, Chappelle’s SHow was on point. And folks didn’t believe me when I said Wayne Brady was cancelled. I’m Wayne Brady, bitch!! Anyway… I’mma go shit shower and shave… L8r

Spongebob Squarepants has to be the funniest shit on TV, cartoon wise cuz nothing can replace Chappelle’s Show.

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- (adj.) 1. One being nameless or faceless within a group or people. 2. The extra red shirt muh fucka on the original Star Trek that dies when they land on a planet. 3. The group of people that your man/woman hangs around with, but you’re not bothered with tryin to get to know them. Used In A Sentence: 1. “I tried to step to ol’ girl but she was around a bunch of non-descript females yacking bout something, I’ll just holla at her later.” 2. “The club was tight last night, until some non-descript niggas broke off and fucked shit up.” 3. “Girl, I was coming off the EL platform and this non-descript fool tried to step to me”

Granted its not really an Internet word, but ya know what, its my blog.

Now I’ve usually I keep my personal politics to myself, usually I voice my opinion by voting. Recently though, I’ve been reading up on some things and its seriously starting to get scary out there. Ever since the SuperBowl, there’s a crack down on indecency and the price for clean airwaves is the first amendment. And the FCC scapegoat is Howard Stern. Now yes I am avid listener of the Stern (well not recently, since the servers in my office kill all radio reception) and they’re placing fines for shit that happened in 2001. What the fuck is retroactive fining. Kinda like getting a speeding ticket today for going 50 on a 30mph street last year. So maybe saying “Fuck” is a little too much for kids, even flashing ya right tittie is too much, but kids know a lot more then what we get them credit for (the little bad-asses).

Now the gay marriage thing has seriously blown the fuck up this year. Personally, I feel that whateva that u’re into shouldn’t fall out into the streets and I don’t care for the ideal of marriage regardless of who does it. I just don’t have a positive image of marriage, but I digress. If people want to get married then they should. I understand the reason for gay people who want to get married outta love and to legally shared spousal benefits. Hell… probably would be the only reason I would get hitched… again I digress. Everyday on Yahoo I see how different states are banning gay marriage. When I see this it really seems so un constitution, and there only explanation is that a gay marriage would somehow corrupt the sanctity of marriage. (Don’t 1 out of every 2 marriages end in divorce, very sanctified). And what really got me pissed was when I read that Black Churches are oppose to this. Its not a civil rights issue. Civil meaning local to the country and rights to marriage and seems like an issue to me. Again I digress.

And finally… have you ever notice that bible thumpers, those live by the glory of God, ready to spout the books words as law are some of the most hateful and ignorant and evil muh fuckas on this planet. A book which to me, is about love, understanding, forgiving, and following the word of God is being used so horribly. Love thy neighbor, and do not judge but yet ready to tell you that your going to hell. Thou shall not kill, but up on rooftops shooting doctors at a Planned Parenthood. Shit is just bizarre. Now I could go into a whole spiel about Bush, WMD and the war, but my fingers are cramping up.

But before I go, I was going home after work and I was a red light. There were some ladies in the middle of the street, collecting money for something, I didn’t really notice cuz I was rushing t a job interview. But when the one of the ladies came up to my car, I shook my head not cuz I’m a greedy bastard, but because I had no change. Now I give all the time, even though street collectors are pretty much begging, so when I say I don’t having anything, this lady goes and starts mouthing me off cuz I wont give. That just pissed me off to no end. Now y’all why I got the “pissed face” on the front page.