I should be home right now,
I should be frunk as duck right now,
I should be beating someone’s ass in spades right now,
I should be laughing with friends right now,
I should be watching a bullshit movie right now,
But right now, I’m sitting at work cussing and on the verge of cutting somebody.

Is a movie with two black men in “White Face” okay? For some odd reason I was check out Yahoo! movies and came across the page for the movie “White Chicks.” Sometimes on Yahoo I’ll check out the message board, especially if I’m bored, I proceeded to so. The movie hasn’t been released yet and white people are screaming bloody murder.

“If 2 white men dressed up in black face, Jesse Jackson & Al Sharpton would be marching…”

“The Wayans are racist…”

It goes on and on. Someone even brought up affrimative action and how black poeple need to stop begging for hand outs. It was all very very sad that people were so affected by an irreverant movie that does not need to be taken so seriously. So what if Shawn and Marlon go “white face,” its only a movie, distributed by Columbia Pictures which I’m quite sure is own by white people. It was white folks that bitched over Janet exposing herself, but yet nothing happened when Madonna, Brityney and Christina were swapping spit on MTV. And its not like white people don’t go around in black face, let’s not forget about the Frat Party I’m not going to say that black folks have a right to make funny of white people but no one can be sure if the movie plays off the stereotypes of white people if they haven’t seen the movie.

I was feeling good today. Today I realize that I’ve moved to a new place, not only literally but mentally. Today I’m ready to put my accident behind me. I know that I will have the scars for the rest of life and the hole will be a constant reminder f my fraility but I’m letting it go. I guess to truly let this go I need to tell the whole story. I’ve been avoiding in saying what happen to those who didnt see it and stopped from expressing how I feel cuz I got tired of the questions and nosey ass people and their fake sincerety. But I digress.

It was on a Friday, March 5th. Like every Friday I checked my direct deposit for my paycheck and got ready for work. I threw my jeans on and my long-sheeve Roc-a-wear shirt and headed out. On the way I stopped at CVS to get some bullshit items like mouthwash and that daily flosser and rushed to work. Everything was as normal as any Friday at the plant. Outbound/shipping was having issues in printing labels for the seats going out.

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Was kinda board at work today cuz its officially… It official, I’m working nights now. But anyway I was reading up on Howard Stern’s website and saw this list and thought it was funny, and fucked up at the same time.

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Probably one of the better shows to come out on network television in a hot minute. I was suppose to cook a bomb ass pot of speghetti with some Italian sausage and a little ground beef but once I got home, put the groceries away and opened up a nice and cool Corona, I had to pop in the first disc.

Maybe its the football fan in me, or maybe I’m sick of see reality TV or another rerun of Law & Order, but Playmakers shoulda been around for a few more seasons. After I got up this morning and had my bowl of Frosted Flakes and watched me some Power Rangers TV, I when ahead and popped in disc two. I had to see the rest of it. Felt like I was missing out. Its a daymn shamed Disney had to cancel this. And as much as I’m “anti-Disney”, Mickey was on point with this.

I’m sitting here questioning myself, and since I’m at work its not really the right time or place for this. But I keep asking myself “Am I the jealous type?” Guess I need to explain the sitaution:

A couple weeks ago, Tracy needed a another computer as for the old one was “reposessed” so I did something I didnt necessary have to do but did cuz I try to be a good man and provider, I got a laptop. Didn’t care what was ran on it as long as it was kept virus free. So on Monday when I went to go pick up Tracy, in tow was the laptop cuz it mysteriously stopped working. Since I rebuilt the OS on it and loaded all the software it shouldn’t have been to hard for me to fix it, right? Nope… the registry was all fucked up with spyware from Kazaa and AOL bloatware. There wasn’t enough space on the harddrive for too much stuff so I systematically started to weed out crap from the folders, subfolder, etc etc. Then I come across the Documents folder and I see whole bunch excel and access files. I really don’t pay them much mind but openned them outta curiousity… one by one they all belong to some nigga named Shaun…

I didn’t think much bout it but I guess the more I had to clean files out the more I kept thinking “Who the fuck is Shaun?” Then it hit me like a brick… is Shaun Tracy’s ex? The same ex Tracy had to move away from? The same one that didnt support Tracy and tried to control Tracy? If all that was true then why is Tracy still communicating with him? I’ve been going on and on and on like this since 7 last night. I don’t want to seem like I’m irrational or some shit cuz I talk to my ex’s. But they know were we stand that I’m with Tracy.

Maybe I’m just tripping over some small insifgnificant shit or maybe am I just jealous?

I went to bed early last night and I when I woke up I wasn’t tired, but soon as I walked into the plant and those daymn florescent lights hit me I was tired and sleepy. So its official, FLOURESCENT LIGHTS ARE THE DEVIL

I’m tired of seeing everybody having some dramatic weight loss. Daymn you Dr. Atkins! He was the devil too and thats why he cracked his head and died he’s been dealt with. But I guess I should cut back on my sugar intake. With the slim possibility of getting hired fulltime at the plant I’ll get paid vacations and maybe I’ll be able to go to Miami with Ken in November. it would be nice to look good for then. Eventhough I dont have any money to buy new clothes for a trip. Oh well

Generally I hurt all over. I banged up my right shoulder lifting up my tv last Friday and I fucked up my left elbow at work on Sunday. The move when fairly quick Saturday morning, Ken was late and didnt say why other then that he got delayed at the last second. And there was a line at the U-Haul place at 8:45am. One guy was complain that he was waiting for service since 8:03am and no one was there. Some by 9am, I had my truck and when back to my moms and attempted to back it up into the driveway, something that took a good 10 minutes.

So after moving all my crap and taking some stuff over to Ken’s house I was done at 11 or so. Practically all my shit was set up where I wanted it and all I had to do was wait for the cable people, who came around 12:30pm.

I didn’t have any people over like I wanted to, pretty much after spending $80 for the truck I was broke and tired and wasn’t in the mood to have people all in my face. I could’ve use a drink though. Maybe this weekend.

And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, I’ll say it clear,
I’ll state my case, of which I’m certain.

I’ve lived a life that’s full.
I’ve traveled each and ev’ry highway;
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way…

By this time tomorrow I will be up and living up in my apartment. I dont think the fact of having my place has hit me yet. I don’t feel overly excited, joyous or any of that other bullshit. I’m tired, frustrated and stressed out but thats cuz the world won’t stop for me and I still got to work around the move.

Its interesting how you can pack your life up and see how little of space u actually take up in the world. Not trying to sound all melancholly but putting shit in perspective I guess. Anyway, here’s to new beginnings.