Its been three days. My brother came over on Friday morning and has been here since. Its been three days, and I’m bout ready to put him the fuck out. I feel really guilty cuz I know he’s been bouncing from place to place recently but I miss my space. He’s been on my phone, and its been ringing off the hook, he has my stereo, tv and my dvd player all going at the same time. Maybe I’m justing tripping, but he has gone thought half a bottle of my lube and I dont wanna know why or how, and he smokes… it will take me weeks to get the smell out of all my clothes and furniture. But I digress, cuz I gotta go to work as he sits here eating up all my food.

Updated: Monday 8/30/04 - 11:35pm

I’mma kill him, I swear to go I will fucking kill him. Not only has he drunk up the last of my Kool-aid, my beer, the case of beer thats been sitting in my fridge for 2 weeks, all my Bacardi, my Absolut, this nigga done fucked somebody in my bed. And didn’t even hide or clean up after himself. I’m so fucking fuming I can’t even talk…

I just can’t fucking believe this!

Over then years I’m sure you’ve how black people are portrayed in the public eye either by their own means or through the “Mass Conspiracy” conducted by “The MAN.” Don’t you think its time we put a stop these folks. We can’t let them continuely drag the honor and prestige of being Black through the muck. To effective stop the sheer “dumb-fuckery” I suggest that their Blackness be revoke. Not something to be taken lightly, but having someone publicly declared “NO LONGER BLACK” should only happen in reaction and prevention of humilitaion to the black people and allows us to save face. And besides we don’t need Bill Cosby cussing us out anymore.

Who do think/know should have their Blackness revoked?

I’m gonna overdose on Mountain Dew

Sometimes you can’t apologize for something you have to do.

I work, I work alot and I have to work alot because I have bills and bills don’t get paid on their own. People say you have a choice in whatever you do, but my choice or work or be poor. What options. I’m losing friends, family, sleep and my sanity because I work seven nights a week. They complain that I don’t call or I’m ignoring them, but where will they be if I was bout tobe out on the streets. Don’t try to make me feel bad for providing for myself, because I have no choice. I can’t be sorry because sometimes you can’t apologize for something you have to do

If you can get away from using Intiernet Explorer, please fof o Jebus, please do. For some reason IE for windows will not find my host. I can’t ping my site from a windows machine, I can’t even FTP. I thought I was having a scripting issues or I fucked something up within my php but soon as I get home to my glorious Apple PowerBook, nothing is wrong. It opens up just like its suppose.

I hate Mircosoft… I truly do.

Shit has been brutal here at the job this week. Just when you think everything is brokedown and not running, something else fucks up. There’s a bound of folks here “helping out” from another plant. Pretty much getting int he way and asking too many stupid questions. (Yes, there is a thing as a stupid question) Calling me for every little thing.

Everyday this week I’ve running around trying to be in 5 places at once, busting my ass and folks still fucking complain. Maybe thats what being in an union is for, to sit around on ya ass and bitch bout all the salary people. In 10 years they’ll be replace by fembots so only til then. I truly see that to have any solidairty in this place I’m have to do some janky shit. Ya know some shit that will get me fired and arrested in one swift action.

“They Don’t Know Me Maine”

Well after being up through the night til 10 in the morning, cussed out Tracy, hurling my alarm clock across my bedroom and break several CDs, I finally upgraded my B2 blog to Wordpress. Yea… I gots anger issues.

Anyway, need to thank Karsh for indirectly introducing me to Kubrick. Hope he dont mind that I “yoinked” his header.

I don’t mean my apartment, but I need to make some time off and go back to Philly for a few days. Cuz yes I do miss my home and my family. Unfortunately I know Lear wont let me go

Someone told me today that I watch too much porn. Which is so far from the truth… If I were to break what I watch in percentages, pretty much 25% of what I is Law & Order, 60% is Cartoons/Adult Swim and the final 15% is pornography. I mean, yeah I have a genetic disposition to perversion but watching porn whether on the Intarweb or my numerous DVDs is not unheathly.

I still function in my everyday life and its not like I’m stroking my shit all the time. That happens in moderating. Like a true social outcast: I watch, I laugh, scan for all the good parts and then go to the start and fast forward to the good shit to jack off. I know I ain’t the only nigga who does it. Well maybe the first to admit it. LOL

Anyway… I was at CVS last night pretty much sucking up my paycheck with a new trimmer, toothpaste and some lube. But of course I got the wrong kind and didn’t notice until I got home. Got the gel and not the regular. Now I can’t take it back and bust myself out for being a perv. So its either throw it out or give it away. So any other perverts want an unopen bottle of Free Astroglide, just holla

BTW West Coast Productions makes the best flicks